Surrender To Sri Guru

Article, Sreela Bhakti Ballabh Tirtha Goswami Maharaj

Srila Gurudeva in his harikatha on the Disappearance Day of Srila Ramanujacharya, narrates an instance they often heard from Param Gurudev. It is from the life of Sri Varadarya and his wife who were disciples of Sri Ramanjacharya. It is an extremely rare case of self-sacrifice. The couple being very poor, the woman decides to sell her body to get the necessary provisions to serve Sri Guru and his disciples. The all-knowing Guru protects her chastity by advising her to offer some of the maha-maha-prasad to the evil merchant and the merchant’s heart changes instantly on honoring the prasad, he begs for forgiveness of the woman and then takes diksha from the Guru and serves the couple life long. At the end of the katha Srila Gurudev remembered a similar example of Kusum Kumari Devi, a disciple of Param Gurudev, who sold her only asset, her house, to serve Gurudev and the vaishnavas without thinking about her future.

  • Once Ramanujacharya along with his disciples went to one place for propagating their teachings. There were two of his disciples living in that place. One of them was a very rich person and the other was very poor. Ramajunacharya along with all his disciples first went to the rich person’s house. When the person saw his Gurudev along with so many of his disciples, he got afraid and went inside his house and did not come out. Ramanujacharya understood, “He has got afraid of seeing so many devotees at his place and he does not have inclination for serving Vaishnavas so there is no need to stay here.”

    He told his other disciples, “We will go to the house of the other devotee. We will take some rest there and will go back. You will not get food there. Today we all will have to fast. We will not stay here.”

    They all went there. The name of his poor disciple was Varadarya. As they reached there, Ramanujacharya started calling, “Varadarya, Varadarya”. When he did not get any reply to his calls, he asked, “Is anybody there in the house?” In reply to which he heard three claps. He thought about the meaning of those claps. That time he saw a torn woman cloth hanging outside. Varadarya had gone to do bhiksha (going door to door to get things to maintain their livelihood). His wife did not know that her Gurudev would come to her house anytime. She had only one cloth which she already had washed after bath and kept hanging outside to dry so she could not come out. She clapped so that Gurudev and her Godbrothers do not go without being served by them. Understanding the indication of the claps, the all-knowing Sri Ramanujacharya threw one uttariya inside the house. The wife of Varadarya wore that cloth, came in front of her Gurudev and offered obeisances while crying in ecstasy. Even in her dream she never thought that her Gurudev would come to their house. She started weeping in an extremely distressful state as no proper seat was available there to offer to her Gurudev. Seeing this Sri Ramanujacharya consoled her by saying, "What can be a better seating place than the natural God-given beautiful grass under the shade of a tree?" Being ordered by Sri Ramanujacharya all the devotees sat under the trees and he sat on a torn asan (seat) provided by the lady. Sri Ramanujacharya had earlier told his disciples that Varadarya is extremely poor that he cannot make arrangements for their food. Varadarya's wife was extremely worried about how she could make arrangements for the afternoon meals of her Gurudev and her Godbrothers.

    Varadarya's wife was an extremely beautiful and chaste lady. Attracted by her beauty one rich merchant tried to allure her several times to get her company. But due to her high chastity and devoutness to her husband the merchant could not have even the sight of her. "My husband is not at home and the Vaishnavas will leave without eating". Thinking her misfortune thus she made up her mind to sell her body which is only made of blood and flesh.

    She arrived at the house of that rich merchant in order to collect the ingredients for the service of the Vaishnavas. Seeing her all of a sudden the astonished merchant inquired the cause of her arrival. She replied that she wanted necessary ingredients for the service of her Gurudev and other Vaishnavas who had come to their house and that in return she would offer her body to him. She promised that she would come again after the dusk to fulfil his desire. The greatly pleased merchant had sent twice the amount of ingredients she requested.

    She prepared many delicious items from those ingredients. In the house of the Varadarya one Narayan Salagram was worshipped daily. Varadarya's wife offered many delicacies to the Lord, pleased her Gurudev and Vaishnavas by serving them the Prasad remnant of the Lord, and she herself waited, fasting until the arrival of her husband. After Prasad Ramanujacharya and other Vaishnavas rested under the trees in the afternoon. Varadarya returned with the bag he carried for begging alms and was astonished to see his Gurudev and his Godbrothers. He offered prostrated obeisances to them and cried incessantly in an overjoyed state. For a long time he was extremely eager for the darsan of Gurudeva but never even thought in a dream that Gurudev himself would come along with his disciples to the house of such a poverty stricken person like him. He had only few grains of rice in his bag that he collected from begging alms. The grieved Varadarya entered the house and was astonished to see various types of delicacies and remaining ingredients. He enquired his wife about how she could collect so much. When she requested him to honour Prasad first he said that his mind became restless and that he cannot take even a morsel of food before he knew from where she accumulated the necessary items. Upon his repeated questioning she fell at his feet and started crying. She revealed her guilt and begged for his forgiveness. Varadarya was dumbstruck listening such impossible words from his chaste wife. He honoured Prasad with lot of gravity. After he finished his meal she took his remnants. Before leaving from that place, the all-knowing Ramanujacharya told Varadarya and his wife to give the remnant Narayana-prasad to the person who had given the ingredients for the offering.

    In order to keep her promise Varadarya's wife fell at his feet and requested his permission to leave. Both of them cried in separation from each other. After some time Varadarya became composed and boldly said, "I am extremely poor. I cannot even sumptuously feed you two times a day, cannot give you clothes to wear, leave aside giving you ornaments. I know how many enticements the merchant, to whom you sold your body, played earlier to attract your grace on him. But he could not even get a sight of you. That very person has sold her body for the service of Guru and Vaishnavas. I don't believe that any person in this universe has the capacity to touch even the tip of your hair. You go fearlessly."

    When Varadary's wife reached the merchant's place he was extremely pleased and astonished. She told him that she would fulfil his desire but requested him to honour the Prasad first that was prepared using the items sent by him for the service of Lord Narayaṇa, Guru and the Vaishnavas. When the merchant agreed she offered him the remnant Prasad of her Gurudev. That was not only the Prasad of Narayan but it was Maha-Maha Prasad. Such is the wonderful nature of Prasad that as soon as the merchant honored it his consciousness was transformed and the mind's pollution was expelled. The merchant, who was burning in the flames of repentance, started crying loudly, falling at the feet of Varadarya's wife. With an aggrieved heart he said, "You are not an ordinary but celestial woman. I am not even destined for hell. I desired to enjoy a chaste and saintly woman like you. In spite of my countless attempts and allurements I could not even get a sight of you, leave aside your physical association. And today that very person has come to sell her own body in lieu of just rice, pulses and vegetables. Please tell me who has come to your house."

    When the merchant heard about the arrival of Sri Ramanujacharya, the merchant fell at the feet of Varadarya and his wife and begged forgiveness for his offenses. He requested them to take him to Ramanujacharya. They immediately left in search of him. They found him. The merchant requested Ramanujacharya to give him Mantra. He took diksa from Sri Ramanujacharya and served Varadarya and his wife all their lives. Can an ordinary person do that? But by honoring Prasad of Ramanujacharya, the heart of the merchant changed. That is the power of Ramanujacharya. There are many more such incidences.

    A similar type of incident took place at our Math. There was a lady named Kusum Kumari Devi who used to live in Bangladesh which was part of India at that time. Once Srila Gurumaharaj went to Bangladesh for preaching. There he used to stay in the house of a wealthy person. Gurudev did not want to stay in the house of a poor person, with so many devotees. He thought it would become a burden on them to arrange for their stay and for Prasadam. So he used to visit the house of such devotees for a few hours. Kusum Kumari Devi who was poor, met Srila Gurudeva and invited him along with his companions to her house. Gurudev agreed to go but asked her on how she will arrange for the Prasadam for so many devotees to which she replied that it would not be a problem. She had strong inclination for serving Guru and Vaishnavas. She had a house and she told Gurudev that she would vacate it for their (Guruji and his companions) stay. Though Gurudev was hesitating, by her repeated requests he ultimately agreed to it. So Srila Gurudev along with his associates went to her house and stayed there. She served them so nicely that even wealthy persons will not be able to render such service. She served from morning until night. All were astonished to see her service. All were wondering that such a poor person who cannot afford her own food—how could she arranged such nice service for so many people! When Gurudev decided to leave she did not let him go. She made Gurudev and his servitors stay in her house for seven days. After seven days when Gurumaharaj and his associates left she gave ‘Pranami’ (a type of monetary service) to them.

    Later it was revealed that she had sold her only house to serve Gurudev. She had requested the person who bought the house from her to allow her Gurudev and his associates to stay in the house for seven days. After that he could happily take the possession of her house. So, when Gurudev and his associates left she also left the house and became a beggar on a street. She sold her everything in order to serve Gurumaharaj. When Gurumaharaj heard about it he was deeply pained. When Gurumaharaj asked her later why she did such a thing, she said that she was not sure whether her Gurudev and his associates will ever come to her place again or whether she will ever be able to serve them again. That is why when she got the chance to serve she did it fully to her heart’s satisfaction. She did not care what will happen to her after that or whether she will survive after selling her house. Gurumaharaj was astounded to hear her reply that she sold her only asset to serve Gurudev and Vaishnava.

    Gurumaharaj arranged for her stay in Yogapith Mandir, the appearance place of Sri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu where she performed bhajan. Tears would come to Gurumaharaj’s eyes whenever he would speak about her. Once Srila Gurudev asked her to read Gita to which she replied that she doesn’t feel bliss by reading Gita because there the name of Sri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu is not mentioned. She had so much love for Sri Chaitanya Deva. Whenever Srila Gurumaharaj took her name, tears came to his eyes. She lived for the rest of her life at the appearance place of Sri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu in Mayapur and left her body there.

Excerpts from Gurudev's Harikatha - https://bbtirtha.org/EN/audio/839

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